Apology

Mitra will get upset about this, but I must (juicy start uh?). You all know how much I love paradox and contradiction. I, lately, have been coming to the conclusion and acceptance that I owe you all an apology. This illness has been entirely my fault. For years I ate like crap, didn't exercise, drank too much, blah blah blah... didn't take care of myself. And when my family and MItra were tellling me to go to the doctor because I have been bleeding for years, I didn't. Thus, I've become sick. It's not genetic and it has clearly been of my own doing. For this state that you, my beloved friends and family, have been thrown into, I apologize.

Now, don't get me wrong. At the same time that this has been the worst thing to happen to me and maybe you, it is also the best thing that has happened. Much love has been expressed that would not have been. And for that, I thank you. So at the same time that I apologize, I am thankful. I am more fortunate than I can express for the love and kindness I have seen from my friends and family.