Deceiving Looks

I'll be honest with you. After looking at my chest, I was not looking forward to the flush of the port. It didn't go too bad though.

As I was coming out of the O.R. yesterday, I was groggy and drugged up, but I realized that while they were pushing my roller coaster bed down the hall, we were about to pass the waiting room. Just as we got there, I rolled over to see my beautiful wife smiling at me. It was at that moment that I realized how similar the emotions of laughter and crying are. I was giggling and crying...I think. I'm not sure which one it was, or if it was both at the same time. I couldn't differentiate. I'm not talking about the face here because that seems more like representation and not the actual thing itself. I'm talking about the guttural and chest feeling. That swelling in the lungs and stomach. For me, I think my spirit plays in my stomach and chest, so i'm guessing it was my spirit. Whether it was crying or laughing, I loved seeing my wife smiling at me. And I loved feeling two considered binaries at the same time.