Teaching/Learning

Damn, I love teaching. Got back into it last night. I am doing one Thursday night class at Skyline this semester, and two classes at State. Last night was the first night back, and it was awesome. It's kind of too bad that I become such a different person in front of a class. I like that person. It's kind of like performing I guess. During my daily life, I feel boring. In front of a class, I feel entertaining: jokes, drama, social significance. Pretty cool. Poetry I guess. The class is a great group of people, so that helps. It is a split honors class. Half of them are in the honors program. I'm really excited about that because so much of being an honors student is just about motivation. They are invested in their education, and that is something that will rub off on the others in the class. That said, the whole class seems into it. I'm also excited about teaching as a new person post 7/1. I'm growing so much as a person that it is going to be cool to see how that affects my teaching.

I've been very lucky that State is going to allow me to turn my classes there into a hybrid online/f2f class. We will meet every other week, then have online classes the other week. More teaching stuff to be excited about. Doing online classes is something that I have wanted to get into, so now I have my opportunity. See, you win some, you lose some. This whole situation has been one big paradox. Life/Death. Chemo/Life(wait, which side of the slash does chemo go on?). Courage/Fear. Disease/Revitalization. I know this might sound sick, but in many ways, I am thankful for having cancer. I have gotten to see such love from friends and family. I've seen a change in them for the better. I've seen a change in my wife. I've seen a change in my heart, soul, and mind. I'll be honest with you. For the last few years, I've been trying to get to the true nature of my self. I'v gotten away from it, but in the last couple of weeks, I've felt closer than ever.