The Novelty is Wearing Off

I'm sick of it. One month down, five to go. You know the novelty has worn off when you are counting down.

This session was ok. I'm hanging in there. The beautiful weather it calling me, so we are going to take a drive today up the coast. I'm trying really hard to keep my spirits up, but I think it is getting tougher. Might just be a down day. One year wedding anniversary was yesterday, and all I wanted to do was fly off to Hawaii again. There are times I don't want to do the chemo anymore. Part of me would rather just feel better and let my body do what it is inclined to do. It's not "right" I know.

Overall, the doc said this time things are going good. It is pretty early to tell much. We have to look for trends in my cancer cell blood count, and that will take a while. He did say I've lost too much weight, but seriously, I haven't looked this good in a long time. I'm slimmer than when we got married last year. I'm looking pretty damned sexy with the new shaved head and sleek physique. Come on doc! Fact is I've lost too much muscle mass and I guess that's not good. On the brighter side, I get to pump up fats and creams along with a lot more protein. Extra cheese on that chicken sandwich please.

I've got a lot of cards and calls to return to lots of you and I'm so sorry for not doing it yet. Continued thanks for the calls, cards, letters, and gifts. I love you all.